After playing games that depict the lives of a certain group of people, I was able to be in their shoes for a duration of the game. I made decisions and was able to go through their life situations by experiencing the circumstances of the decisions I made in the games.
When I played Spent, I did my best to make decisions that would make me survive the game. As a result, I took heartless decisions that I wouldn’t make in real life such as not going to my grandmother’s funeral, not make my child go to a birthday party and chose not to see the doctor when I need to. Such decisions made me survive till level 30 and then the game decided that my money is over because I didn’t buy insurance of the car. At that point of the game, I felt that I could do everything and still I will lose my money at the end of the game. It made me feel like everything was pointless and I was going to lose my money anyway. And for a moment I thought about people who don’t get paid well and have children and a house to take care of. How do they make it through life?
When I played BBC Syrian Journey, I felt that I was being chased by a set of scenarios that are going to kill me no matter what I chose. And when I thought about it, I realized that actually Syrians struggle to save their lives, and that this game was actually nothing compared to what they go through.
I also played the single moms game, and I felt empathy for the single moms who have to take care and raise children on their own without a partner to help them out and carry some of the burden with them. I felt that the options of the answers I had were so limited to the extent that I knew what was coming next after choosing a certain answer.
I also played Domestic Abuse, which made me realize the number of women who are subjected to domestic abuse in Egypt. I actually started to feel how domestic abuse can be noticed in someone’s attitude even before marriage. I realized women feel ashamed of such action and actually decide to hide it instead and not talk about it or resist it at all. And the more we stay silent about it, the more it gets worse especially in our culture, where we think women deserve to be abused.
Additionally I played the Darfur is dying game and it really reminded me of the BBC Syrian Journey and gave me the same feels.